Quick Update

Hey all. Things are going pretty good over here. I've moved into the house with Crystal, things are slightly odd and tense, but ok. It could be worse. I just started my last semester of this grad program. Sooooo ready to be out of school and live a "normal life".

Crystal and I have technically been broken up now for almost 4 months now, but in reality it has been almost a year since we've actually been connected. I've learned a lot about myself in this time apart. And yes, I do realize that we still live in the same house, but the responsibility I feel for her comfort and happiness is not at all what it used to be, and that has been such a wonderful change in my life. I had forgotten who "Jenn" is! I had become entirely too serious about life, way to structured on my "off time", not nearly as sassy as I naturally am, wasn't being the naturally silly me, and not really enjoying myself. Now that I have had the chance to take a step back and look... I had turned into a mini Crys. Now, I do not want to talk trash on Crys, there are many wonderful qualities about her, and we for many years had good times together. We just simply started drifting off in different directions, and I was going a direction that did not feel natural or authentic to me. It is also obvious that she is bothered by who I want to be and how I live my life (it does not seem to fit into her very predictable, structured and serious way of living, which I respect but do not want to live my life like that)

I planned to be single for quite some time after this split, but life has brought someone into my life. There is no age difference, which makes things easier. I had no idea how much of an impact Crys and I's 9 year age difference had on who we were as a couple. It definitely required me to "age" a bit to keep the peace. I can just be me with this new person. She actually likes and appreciates my sassy, silly, loudness outside of my work (which of course I am reserved and professional) Time with her feels very natural, we giggle, we can talk seriously, we can cry, we can just sit and hold hands and watch a movie. I know it sounds odd, but I never had that with Crys. There was always a level of tension involved..

I will always treasure the good times Crys and I had, and will always be grateful for the support she gave me and the experiences we had, but it is definitely time for me to move on, feel life, enjoy life the way I want vs enjoying it to the degree that it wont interfere with her life.
There is a location hang up with my new relationship. There is quite a bit of distance between us, and we dont get to see each other often but when we do its a week at a time. Her job will not allow for a closer location until June. So things are definitely being paced for us by the "Universe"

I have recently been told by several people that I seem much happier and lighter. That my energy has changed. All I have in response is "I am! And it has!!"

Things are getting better ya'll. My health is getting better, I"m on the last leg of grad school, I'm starting to feel more authentic, and I'm not taking life quite so seriously outside of my profession.

So thats me for now.. Hope you all are doing well, I'll be making my rounds to all your pages soon!